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I woke up from the alarm at 5.30 but couldn’t even be bothered to turn on the light and spent the next house just lying there trying to will myself into being awake. Then I ended up reading „Kiwi Blitz“ until I finally got up at 8. Nope, no writing.

My husband was rather surprised when he showed up at 8.30 and I had just started eating my breakfast. And we both were equally surprised when the boy came down at 9.28. Yes, I did look at the clock.

We talked and I knitted and I did the breakfast dishes and finally managed to leave for my run after ten. I had planned to do another 11k run. Everything went fine, my heart rate was not too high, I felt light and good and was running quite a bit instead of my usual walking most of the way. My left calf was a little cramped but I often get that and it usually goes away if I focus on loosening the muscles.

But then it hurt a little more. And some more. And so I had to start walking again. And the it seriously hurt and didn’t get better so I decided to turn around after 2.6k:

Yes, it is little dry yet again. I’m still in good spirits here:

Okay, reasonable good spirits, also the sun shone in my eyes. I need to get myself running sunglasses.

And then I hobbled back home. Painfully. My husband was immediately concerned when he ran past me right before our house on his way back. I have been looking at other runner’s pace a lot lately and for anybody interested my pace yesterday was 8 min/k for running with a little walking thrown in and 14 min/k for hobbling.

I think I pulled a muscle. I helped to make lunch:

Very yummy if a little spicy, and spent the rest of the day sitting in an easy chair with my leg elevated on a cooling pad. Which might not hinder a normal person from working on her novel or work on the website or anything but since I’m me I just sat there watching the Giro d’Italia with half an eye while reading some more „Kiwi Blitz“ on my laptop. (I have to say that I like „Sleepless Domain“ by the same person even better but I’m all caught up with that one.)

I also skipped bodyweight training and went from sitting in the chair watching the bike race to sitting in the same chair and watching Star Trek with the boy without even getting up in between. Interestingly I seem to have become a person who gets antsy just sitting around. Huh, former couch potato me would never have guessed.

So today the agenda is mostly sitting around some more with my leg elevated and iced and then I’ll see.

Woke up from the alarm and still felt without energy. And that translated into me not writing and not meditating and not writing morning pages first thing. Boo. Which was a mistake because I’m sure I would have felt better if I had done all of these things.

Then breakfast and meditation and knitting. Talking with my husband. Who told me to go and write right away after breakfast but I declined and thought it would be a better idea to go grocery shopping first to get it out of the way.

I walked all the way and went to the hardware store as well to find the right screws for the trellis my husband wants to install for the apricot tree. There is a lot of insulation between the brick of the annex and the plaster which makes it hard to fix anything to it. I did find special screws and anchors but they were quite expensive.

Then the grocery shopping and when I came home and had put everything away it was time to have lunch. We didn’t have to cook because we were eating leftover lasagna and some red beet salad that my husband had made the night before:

And then I had a long list of things I wanted to do before teaching but – the boy and I got to talk about getting him a new rain coat and some other clothes and things and so we looked at lots of ugly and boring rain coats online and the ones that were nicer were out of the price range. I don’t want to buy a 250 Euro raincoat for my 16 yo. son who will probably grow some more. (Though it might be a good idea, if he grows out of it my husband can inherit it. They’re wearing the same size at the moment. But nah, too expensive for us adults as well.)

So there went most of my lunch break. I did the dishes and was waiting for my first student. This is the last month he’ll be taking lessons with me and his father hadn’t paid for May yet (payment is due in advance). We had emailed back and forth and he had told me he’d send the money with his son in cash.

I was a bit disappointed when the son knew nothing about the money. So I went with him after the lesson and talked to his father.

Not a fun conversation. I might have raised my voice. We were both pissed at each other beforehand anyway. He said he’ll send the money to my account. Yeah. Sure.

My next student was already waiting when I came back. The rest of my teaching day was delightful as always. I do have a lot of very nice students. No need to get hung up on the outliers.

Then there was bodyweight training. And I still had most of my to-do-list ahead of me. Including trying a new way of making pizza dough.

I did turn the lights out on time, so that was good.

Today there will be cleaning and the aforementioned pizza and lots and lots of teaching and then knitting and Star Trek.

As I said. Phew.

Even the boy said so.

I woke up from the alarm at 5.30 and managed to let time slip through my fingers again until after six. I did write for 25 minutes, at least. Then more internet which meant I had to get up in a hurry to make breakfast. Which was partially alright because the boy was late too but partially not because I thawed blueberries for my husband’s muesli.

Unfortunately it should have been a non-muesli day. Bummer. He used the blueberries and had muesli but was grumbling a bit and saying that he didn’t want to talk to people who were not in their right mind.

I knitted and we talked eventually and then there were dishes and such. I went to the health food store and to the bakery to get something nice for everybody’s breakfast today, and then I very reluctantly went out to run. I had a low-energy day and only ran for about 500 meters out of my 4.8 k but at least I went out there and ran. And didn’t even realize that the tree that had blocked the path the day before had been gone, so I didn’t take a picture:

I helped to make lunch:

It was delicious, very balanced and not too spicy. I ordered 3 kilos of salt on the internet because we’re running out of our favorite one and the shop where I got it before doesn’t have it anymore.

Then I fell into a bad, bad slump after doing the dishes again.

I did eventually get ready for teaching and was lucky that my first student canceled because otherwise I couldn’t have prepared the rest of my lessons.

And then it was time again to do more dishes and get ready for bed. I had had secret plans of sewing, working on the website and writing some more but I felt distinctly meh about everything. I did wash the spinning sample, so that was good and printed the new contracts for the new students.

I talked to my husband about this and wondered if the smaller dose of pregnenolone I’m taking but he said he is feeling equally low so it was probably something else. I’m trying to wean myself off most of my supplements and such. Ideally I want to end up only taking the thyroid medication, the antihistamine and vitamin D. I mean, if we’re talking ideally, the best would be not to have to take anything but I doubt that would make me feel good.

Since I learned that it can take weeks to see the effects when you’re dealing with hormones I am taking things slow. It all started when I couldn’t get the pill, so I decided to try to go without. I’ve been having pretty mild hot flashes that are better when I don’t drink alcohol. After a few weeks of that going pretty well I started taking only half the dose of pregnenolone and that’s where I’m currently at. If I feel good with that I will try going without entirely, and if not I will have to buy more pills.

Today there will be more running and quite a lot of teaching. Maybe some bodyweight training, we’ll see how I feel about it tonight. Not much else because of all the students.

I had turned the alarm off again and slept in until 6.30 again. Maybe I need to rethink my bedtime. Or my wakeup time. Or both.

I did meditate and write morning pages, had breakfast and knitted and then the rest of the family showed up. The boy had drawn me a picture:

There were dishes and then my husband and I went to the flower shop to get some for his mother. I called my mother on the phone. We made lunch:

The very nice wine was a gift from the friends who visited us about a week ago. They have their own vineyard.

Then I sat down in front of the TV with my spinning and the Giro d’Italia to spin a sample for my husband’s sweater and that took all afternoon and so my to do-list stayed unchecked.

The boy and I spent an hour with the teaching website after that. We didn’t make a lot of progress but it still helped. He basically held my hand while I explained to him what I had done so far. I might have bought another WordPress Theme.

And then we watched both „Voyager“ and „Deep Space Nine“. I continued knitting on the Crazy Tee and just at the end of the first episode I found that I hadn’t read the pattern properly and had skipped loads of crucial increases. So I had to rip back about forty rows.

After that I finally planned out the week in my Bullet Journal and went to bed.

Today there will be running and teaching and not a lot more. This will be a pretty full week with all the teaching.

Woke up from the alarm at 5.30, really eager to repeat the kind of morning I had the day before and found that I instead was just laying there for another twenty minutes. So the early morning just got away from me, I was all out of energy.

Then there was breakfast and talking with first the boy and then my husband and knitting and dishes and such and then I went outside to do my long run because there wouldn’t be time for that today. I did 11 k of more walking than running and all it all it was very enjoyable if strenuous:

Halfway point:

And back:

There weren’t many people out, I only saw about half a dozen but most of those did reek of perfume. Rather odd. Made me happy that I don’t have asthma anymore. I was a little apprehensive of one or two of the dogs after my bad experience the other day but only very little, so that’s good. And all the dog owners looked after their dogs and had them come closer when I approached which is how it should be.

And just like Wednesday I encountered a horse-drawn carriage. It was empty and there were two men sitting on  the bench. Unusual but rather nice.

When I was almost home it started to rain like crazy and my shoes and leggings were soaked afterwards. But I took a shower right away so it was all good.

Then we took off to the Greek restaurant around the corner to meet the boy after school:

By then I was pretty ravenous and ate most of what was on my plate. On the way back my legs informed me that they did not want to go uphill or walk any further but it wasn’t far.

Then it was time for another potential new student and I am very happy that both of those will start regular lessons with me next week.

I had an afternoon of teaching alternating with breaks because one student canceled and two others moved their lessons later in the day. I found that I still didn’t have much energy, so all I did during breaks was read the internet. And I published the next podcast episode, this one is for English-speakers, by the way.

After that the boy and I watched some Star Trek and that was it.

Today I want to clean the house and change the sheets on my bed and then my husband and I will bike to Vesak in Munich. I’m hoping for dry weather throughout.