Susanne

Oct 192017
 

I just started writing that yesterday was even more of the same, and somewhat predictable and boring but then I remembered that we finally found out what’s wrong with my mother.

As you recall she fell a week ago, hurt her back, and had to go to the hospital. Well, unfortunately she actually did break a spinal disc. Which means she has to spend the next three months in a corset (which she already owns because she had back surgery a couple of years back). She won’t be able to do anything, bear no weight, and probably will only be allowed to either lie in bed or stand but not sit. Which is making for a rather boring and uncomfortable life. The good news is that she does not have to have surgery for this one.

She’s happy to be staying in the hospital a little longer. I have no idea how my father is doing alone at home but I’m guessing I would have heard if there were a problem.

Other than that yesterday was pretty routine, running, teaching, practice, no work on any novel, early-ish to bed.

The one remarkable thing was that I did pull out the spinning wheel and started spinning the second half of the purple merino that has been sitting around for ages.

Today there will be even more of the same with bonus podcast recording, and strength training (I hope). My track record for strength training on Thursday – when I’m running in the mornings – isn’t good.

So I guess we’ll see.

Oct 182017
 

Yesterday went pretty well, I ran all the errands, went to the tea shop, the bakery, the post office, the health food store, and the regular supermarket, I sold the now obsolete old router (well, three months old), wrapped it up and sent it off, I bought a new binder for the printed manuscript of novel three, and found that I don’t have enough shelf space for all the printed manuscripts. I need to finish things so that I can throw the print-outs away. Soon.

I also decided on what to work on next. I think I’ll go through novel one again and pull out all the song lyrics. I love them, and they are rather atmospheric but then letting them in would be a pain because I would need to get the rights, and pay for them. So I’ll better write my own atmosphere.

I acutally forgot to practice. Which shows you how scatterbrained I am at the moment.

I did hear from my mother but she still has no idea what’s going on. I think small town medical care is not my favorite thing at the moment. This is a thing that might contribute to me being scatterbrained. Somewhat.

I didn’t clean anything but I finally managed to change the sheets on my bed, so there’s that. Progress.

Today I will go for a run, teach, start working on novel one yet again, and maybe clean a thing or two. Oh, and not forget about practice. And maybe find the energy and time to get the songs sorted that I have to record on the weekend. The problem with my energy levels at the moment is that while I have an hour or two in the evenings where I could get stuff done I’m usually so brain-dead and fatigued by then that all I can do is sit and read. Or stare blankly into space. And eat.

This definitely needs to change. Also the low-level headache I’ve been having for almost a week now.

I’m really looking forward to that doctor’s appointment…

Oct 172017
 

Well, on the bright side I managed to get an email out of the way that I had been procrastinating about for days, and I made a doctor’s appointment because of the tiredness/fatigue I’m feeling all the time. I won’t get to see my favorite doctor, unfortunately, he has been scaling back lately, instead I’ll see someone I never met before in the same practice.

I also did all my teaching, I ran (and it was actually fun), I punched holes in the two manuscripts I had printed out, and everything went very well, and then some time around 4 pm I completely ran out of energy, and that was that with the day. The house looks terribly dirty with dust bunnies everywhere, and I haven’t changed my sheets in weeks.

Well, new day new luck. Today is errand day, and I will only teach a few students, so – of course – I have a list of to-dos that’s a mile long. We’ll see how that goes.

At least the weather is sunny and warm again. The leaves are turning, and everything looks just gorgeous.

Oct 162017
 

No, really, nothing. I spent all day yesterday sitting around, reading and knitting and crocheting and faffing around on the internet.

Now you’d think that would be totally relaxing, and I guess it was, but in the end I realized that that kind of day doesn’t do me any good. Unless I’m sick or something. I was in a bad mood most of the day, and ate way too much chocolate. By dinnterime I was snapping at everyone around me.

So I need to remind myself for next time that I don’t actually enjoy days where I don’t do anything.

Fortunately there is lots to do today, and I’m already feeling a little better even though I woke up too early yet again. Not drinking alcohol doesn’t seem to make a difference in regards to sleep. I do feel a little better, though. It’s only been a week so far but it’s clear that drinking less does me good. Which is not that unexpected.

Today I will run and teach and practice, and help cooking, and deal with laundry, and do stupid small things that need to be done, and hopefully go to bed early again.

The weather is still gorgeous, and I’m really looking forward to running.

Much better than sitting around all day.

And I would never have thought that I would be the one saying that. When I was in my twenties my idea of the ideal weekend was staying in bed reading, only to get up to buy cake in the afternoon.

Yeah, people actually do change occasionally.

Oct 152017
 

Yesterday was a most pleasant day, and I’m chuffed that I managed the 8K of running and the 10K of biking without feeling bad at any point. At the end of my bike ride home I had the feeling that yes, my legs had done enough for the day but I’m not even sore today.

The new spinning meeting was great, very nice people, and it was warm and sunny so we could sit outside on the patio spinning. I even stayed longer than planned which I only rarely do. So I’ll definitely be back.

Today I’m hoping for a slow day, I want to knit, and read, and not do much. I can feel a cold coming, and I’d like to stave that off as much as possible.

The idea for the new novel is percolating in the back of my mind while I’m thinking about story structure, turning points and crises.

There are no cookies left today, the met with wild approval. Maybe I’ll make waffles this afternoon, we’ll see.

I’m really looking forward to a day off.

Oct 142017
 

This is the second part of episode 90, part one can be found here.

Oct 142017
 

This is the first part of episode 90 with the shownotes. Part 2 can be found here.

I knitted:

  • Black Lauriel 2: done
  • Solace: done
  • Batty Magrathea: all knitted up but frogged
  • Fuchsia Lauriel 2: done, needs washing and buttons
  • Cleave Socks: done
  • Easy: halfway done for the third time
  • Vanilla is the new black from handdyed yarn: done
  • Stripeys (Drumlarnig by Anneh Fletcher) out of yarn I got in London: done
  • Caerwent out of yarn I got in London: second sock has a heel
  • Twisted soles: started, am unconvinced

I spun:

  • purple Nube on the Victoria
  • bourdeaux merino on my Bosworth Mini
I crocheted:
  • mug warmer
  • Sophie’s Universe
I sewed:
  • purple top: thought I was done but was unhappy with the neck facing

I embroidered:

  • Sampler from Rebecca Ringquist’s book: started

Episode 81: The thing with plastics

Episode 82: Tour de Fleece 2017 prep

Episode 83: Unfinished

Episode 84: The someday/maybe list

Episode 85: Tour de Fleece Recap

Episode 86: Yes, I’m particular

Episode 87: Knitting on the road

Episode 88: Fall Beginnings

Episode 89: Bielefeld spins

 

Things I talked about:

Oct 142017
 

So yesterday was a really busy day as planned. I did record the English podcast episode in the morning, even though my voice was not in the best shape, and then, just when we were about to leave for lunch, I got an email from my sister and a phone call from my aunt telling me that my mother had to go to the hospital the day before.

Nothing life-threatening, she hurt her back, and they will only be able to tell what’s wrong after Monday because they need to do an MRI, and the very small hospital she’s at doesn’t do MRIs every day. I’m very grateful for my sister and aunt keeping me in the loop because my father is not the type of person who’d call in a situation like this. These are the times when sometimes I wish I lived a little closer to my family but then if I did live a little closer I would have to be right in the middle of all these people trying to communicate and figure things out, and failing. And I would probably feel obligated to look after my father who will be completely able to care for himself for a few days. And my aunt is checking in on him and on my mother as well.

So guess what? I did not clean anything yesterday. I know, shocking. Also the most important thing right now, I know.

The rest of the day went pretty well, we had Chinese and sushi at the restaurant near us, and the owner remarked on how tall the boy has grown, and about how his voice has changed, and then I went back home, and taught a student, and then I phoned my aunt and tried calling my mother, and then I taught some more, and I was so confused that I forgot to remind my last student to pay for her lesson (I did put a post-it in her file, though, so I can remind her next time.), and then I talked to my mother on the phone who did not sound as loopy as I would have thought with all the painkillers, and then we had dinner, and the boy and I watched another episode of „Star Trek: The Next Generation“ (one with Q that was really excellent), and then I baked cookies for the spinning meeting today, and then I went to bed way too late.

I only slept for 6 1/2 hours but I got 3 hours of deep sleep according to my sleep tracker, so yeah? I guess? Have a cookie to distract you:

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Today there will be running, and then I’ll take off for the meeting. I already have my spinning stuff and my purse packed, I only need to add the cookies and a spindle. I am also participating in the „Herbstlesen“-event again even though I don’t really have the time for that today. On the other hand I have already spent about 90 minutes reading because I woke up before 6 am, and it’s 8 right now.

Tomorrow is blissfully empty, no appointments (well, we could go out to brunch to meet people but I guess we won’t), only a little puttering around and some singing to do. I guess I’ll need that.

Oct 132017
 

I just tried to turn my laptop on to write my daily post but it itsn't booting properly. I've been waiting for this computer to die on me for more than a year now. I hope it isn't quite time yet. I has been somewhat quirky but functional. Which is okay if you remember that this computer is more than seven years old. (And now that I'm typing this (on the tablet) I find that the laptop has decided to boot after all. Phew. I can do most things on the tablet but I can't record a podcast on it which is what I'll be doing this morning. At least if everything goes as planned.

Yesterday I was pretty good, the only thing I skipped was the strength training. I guess I have to find a different way of doing it because after running, teaching, and doing other work all day by 6.30 I'm rather reluctant to do something strenuous before getting dinner.

I did learn some things about how to market books, though, I did watch a video I had been wanting to watch for weeks, and I finally found all the lyrics to the songs I want to record for my mother's birthday and printed them out. Baby steps all the way. Same with the novel I want to write in November, I now have a document in Scrivener with parts that say “beginning”, “middle A”, “middle B”, and “ending”. Very important steps for sure.

And I managed to go to bed almost on time, and can now say that according to the last days' experiments every time I turn the lights out at 9.30 I will get enough sleep, every time I turn the lights out at 10 I don't. I have no idea why I wake up an hour earlier after turning the lights out half an hour later but that's what it is. It does remind me of the days when I still had a toddler who found it impossible to fall asleep. Often when we tucked him in a little earlier falling asleep would be much easier for him.

Though I have to say that I don't have any problems falling asleep. According to my sleep tracker it takes me 11 minutes every night without fail. Unless I'm seriously overtired, then it takes four.

I know, sleep is just so fascinating. Well, it is when you're not getting enough.

Today will be extra, extra busy but fun (I hope). I will attempt to finally record the next English episode of the podcast, go to the Asian place around the corner for lunch with my husband and son (which I've been looking forward to for days now), then teach a lot, in between do some cleaning (wish me luck), then listen to the podcast so I can publish it tomorrow, then watch something on TV with the boy while my husband goes to the city to see a free improvisation concert, and then bake cookies for tomorrow's spinning meeting.

And then go to bed on time.

Should be completely doable if I don't spend all my time on the internet.

We'll see how that goes.

Oct 122017
 

Yesterday was a full day, I was not lazy and still didn’t manage everything I wanted to. Which is alright. I even went to bed early and slept a little more than eight hours. Bliss!

I did print the revised novel two out and the rough draft of novel three (which still lacks an ending, I know what will happen, I just couldn’t bring myself to write it). They make nice satisfying piles of paper on my desk. Novel two is still too short but I’m thinking maybe I should trust my former self about the first version not being good enough. I’ll reread both, though. I only have no idea when I should do that.

Time is really my biggest problem. Doing more of everything is working in a way but doing more of everything while getting enough sleep, and exercise, and keeping the house in a semblance of order – tough. (And no, hiring a cleaner is not an option. First, cleaners cost money that I don’t want to spend, and second, a cleaner won’t do my dishes or laundry or tidy the house. Actual cleaning costs me between one and two hours a week, and that should be easily found if I stop spending so much time online.)

Which is a challenge I’ve been thinking about for a while now, going offline – or mostly offline – for some time. I’m too chicken to do it at the moment, though.

Not drinking alcohol is going well, and last night I didn’t even binge on food. Yeah me! At the moment I don’t even have cravings for beer much but I’m sure that will change once I’m sitting in front of TV on Friday night because that’s traditionally accompanied by the first beer of the weekend. Well, I’ll just substitute an alcohol-free beer instead.

We won’t go to the Greek restaurant soon, though, because they whip out the ouzo even before you’ve properly entered the premises, and a bike tour to a beergarde on Sunday is out for similar reasons. So we’ll go and have Chinese for lunch tomorrow, less temptations.

Today there will be another 5K run, quite a bit of teaching, and then I hope to finally get started on my mother’s birthday present. I’m so behind, it’s not funny anymore. Somewhere in between I will have to find time to clean parts of the house, and maybe change the sheets. Also do fifteen minutes of strength training, and continue my „going to bed early“-streak.

This will be really exciting for sure! Stay tuned!