Jan 022018
 

Yesterday was a medium productive day. I’m starting to think that I need to adjust my writing goals because I never reach them. So I decided to write 500 words a day every day in January. I can write more but I don’t have to. Since that takes me about fifteen minutes it should be doable. But then I always say that. We’ll see.

Last night I decided that I wanted sleep more than writing and turned the lights off at nine. I slept like a log until my alarm went off at 6.30. It was glorious.

Today there will be a lot of grocery shopping (I even went out for milk before breakfast), and some strength training (it’ll be interesting to see what will prevent us from doing that today), and a bit of writing, and practice and such, and maybe a little sewing as well. But then I’ve been saying that for weeks now and there hasn’t been any. Funny, how the sewing machine never unpacks itself.

I’d think that if I only had a dedicated place for sewing, things would be much better but I know that’s not true. You know how people always tell you to do things like put on your workout clothes first thing in the morning to make it easier to exercise? Every single time I do that I end up not exercising. My husband and I have found the same to be true when teaching. Every single time you prepare for a lesson in some special way and set everything up just so the student will cancel.

One explanation for the workout clothes thing might be that my unconscious thinks that wearing the clothes was already enough. Like when you visualize an achievement like how you will be feeling after finishing your novel your mind will go all, „Oh, good, we’ve done that already.“ Which is why you should visualize how you do something, and how you deal with obstacles and unexpected things.

As you can tell I’m all about planning and thinking and goal-setting these days.

All while feeling like I’d rather crawl back into bed. This fatigue is driving me a bit nuts I have to say.

Thirteen days until the next doctor’s appointment.

Jan 012018
 

We had a rather slow day yesterday which was kind of nice.

The cheese fondue for dinner was the best ever. We used the cheese that we had been given as a gift from my husband’s uncle and aunt who live in a region near the Alps that is famous for its cheese. For a reason, apparently.

Then the boy and I watched numerous episodes of „How I Met Your Mother“, we watched some „Star Trek“ and the inevitable „Dinner for One“ as a family, had champagne and snacks, ignored the fireworks as hard as possible, talked quite a bit, and went to bed around 2 am.

All of us declared that we like our normal days better than the ones that are supposed to be special. The boy complained about having to stay up late several times but didn’t want to go to bed anyway.

I slept until 8.45 which is pretty unheard of. Now I’m having a bit of a headache and have that slightly displaced feeling that comes with the change of routine. My hip and back tell me they didn’t like all the sitting around I did yesterday so I guess I’ll go out for my usual Monday run soon.

I haven’t started my bullet journal for the new year, that’s something I’ll sit down with this afternoon, I guess. I’ll write down my goals for the next year, and my monthly and weekly spread (everything at once this year – which I like in a way), and the overview over the next six months.

Other than that I’m hoping that the day will just be a normal day without teaching.

I wish you all a very happy and healthy New Year, and thanks for reading.

Dec 312017
 

So I actually slept longer than usual today, my husband got up early and did not build a fire in the wood stove and all of that results in a slightly later daily blog post (shrugs shoulders).

I am still trying to wrap my head around 2017 as a whole, and failing. I’m also still not writing, no idea why. I am completely low on energy all day so that might have something to do with it.

I am contemplating all kinds of things like restricting social media (I have the suspicion that my feeling of „It’s all too much!“ stems from consuming too much social media at least in part.), or not eating sugar and drinking alcohol until my weight is back down where I want it to be, or like doing loads of challenges.

I don’t really do New Year’s resolutions but I am doing goals this year and I might write my goals down and put them on the side of the fridge even. We’ll see.

Yesterday was spectacularly unproductive but I’m completely okay with that. No idea if I will write any words today or not. I am still thinking about how to develop a daily writing habit, though. Not for the blog which is going rather well at the moment but for fiction. I have been thinking about the fact that I spend some time every morning writing several hundred words for the blog, and have also been thinking that I might use that time and energy for fiction but right now the solution of just spending less time online reading stuff and more time offline writing stuff seems more attractive.

Today will be mostly a normal Sunday, there will be leftovers for lunch because we have a ton of them, and we are planning to make cheese fondue tonight (not a normal Sunday activity). We will all do our thing during the day, and in the evening we have planned to watch some „Star Trek“ together, and maybe some concert videos (we started recording conerts this morning at 6; there is „Pop around the Clock“ on TV again, and the ones that really interest us are all on in the early morning), and of course „Dinner for One“.

There might be champagne in the fridge. I might decide to go to bed before midnight even. I remember that last year the whole thing stopped being fun somewhere between 10 and 11, as it always does. But the boy told me I’m not allowed. We’ll see.

I ran out of yarn on the crochet blanket which means I will be ordering tons of yarn today. And I almost bought a book even though I have new rules in place. (I’m trying the “buying way less books“-challenge yet again.) But then I found that the book is available in a German translation as an ebook at my library so I’ll be reading that in German for a change.

I don’t think I will be able to think everything through that I want to in one day so I’m giving myself another week or so for that.

2017 on the whole was a rather full and interesting year, that much is clear.

 

Dec 302017
 

Gestrickt habe ich:

Gehäkelt habe ich:

Gesponnen habe ich:
  • Adventskalender: fertig gesponnen und gezwirnt
  • Grünes Polwarth von Spinning Martha auf dem Little Gem angefangen
Projekt Kleiderschrank
  • Es gibt jetzt endlich ein Thema in der „Podcasting auf Deutsch“-Gruppe

Der faserverzückte Jahresrückblick

1. Dein Craftingjahr 2017 – wie wars?

  • Erzähle von deinen Projekten – am besten 1-2 bemerkenswerte herauspicken: Ich habe den Eindruck, praktisch nichts gehandarbeitet zu haben, aber Sophie’s Universe ist ein Thema, das sich durchzieht, leicht herausragend auch das Auftrittskleid
  • Was hast du Neues gelernt oder ausprobiert in diesem Jahr? Äh nix, hatte allerdings vorher noch nie eine so große Häkeldecke mit allen möglichen verschiedenen Häkeltechniken gemacht.
  • Für wen hast du dieses Jahr gestrickt/gehäkelt/gewebt… vorwiegend für mich
  • Lieblingsdesigner_in 2017? Anneh Fletcher
  • Was war für dich in Sachen Events und Treffen los dieses Jahr? Highlight war „Bielefeld spinnt“ und das Nikolaustreffen in Ohlstadt und das Spinntreffen in Krailling
  • Was sind deine Crafting-Pläne für 2018? Da war dieses „Projekt Kleiderschrank“, als viel nähen und plane einige Jacken und Pullis, z.B. etwas aus den lila Fasern, die ich auf dem Victoria spinne und der Saturn-Pullover aus der Interweave Crochet
2. State of the Stash
  • Mehr oder weniger? Und wie kam es? Eher weniger.
  • Lieblingsgarne und Neuerwerbungen 2017? Wolle für Sophie’s Universe wird nicht mein neues Lieblingsgarn, die Sockenwolle aus England mit dem Silberfaden ist sehr schön, ich habe sehr viel Trekking verstrickt, aber werde das nächste Mal wohl Opalwolle probieren
  • Wie gehts 2018 weiter? ausmisten und aufräumen; das nutzen, was ich habe
3. Bunt Gemischtes
  • 3 schöne Dinge 2017: meine London-Reise, das unser Sohn jetzt sein neues Zimmer hat
  • 3 nicht so schöne Dinge 2017: dass wir immer noch kein funktionierendes Wohnzimmer haben; die Schilddrüsenknoten; die ständige Müdigkeit
  • Buch des Jahres? Ich konnte mich nicht entscheiden, aber hier ist eine (noch unvollständige) Liste aller Bücher, die ich 2017 gelesen habe.
  • Film/Serie des Jahres? American Gods
  • Musik/Song/Album des Jahres? Beethoven Violinkonzert mit Arabella SteinbacherTool mit den Alben „Aenima” und “10,000 Days”
  • Wie hat es – falls vorhanden – mit dem Motto für 2017 geklappt? Erstaunlich gut, „Von allem mehr“ hat sich tatsächlich bewährt
  • Wenn du ein Motto für 2018 hast, was wird das sein? Ich möchte die Dinge, die mir wichtig sind und die ich gerne mache, davon möchte ich mehr machen, ich möchte weniger konsumieren und weniger Geld ausgeben. Mehr schreiben, mehr Musik machen, mehr Nähen, sinnvoll Handarbeiten; vielleicht wird das Motto für 2018 doch wieder „Von allem mehr“.

Erwähnt wurde:

Dec 302017
 

Going out for lunch was actually as nice as I hope it would be, definitely a highlight of the day.

The boy set an alarm for him and his friend so they showed up for breakfast at ten. I really appreciate that but I do feel a little bad for them because that meant they didn’t get enough sleep. His friend stayed until noon and left just before we went out for lunch.

In the morning I did clean the house. Well, I always feel rather bad saying that I „clean the house“ because what I do on Fridays (if everything goes well which it doesn’t always) is I clean the mirrors, empty the dustbins, wave a duster over most of the furniture, do a quick vacuum in the middle of each room, wipe down the sink and toilet and that’s it. I did not vacuum the outside hallway which would really need it, I did not wipe down the tub (couldn’t be bothered), I did not clean the cabinet under the bathroom sink or under the kitchen sink, both of which look rather horribly dirty.

But at least after that cleaning session the house looks somewhat nicer than before.

I finished just in time to get dressed for lunch. The restaurant was pretty empty. It’s usually rather packed, especially on Fridays at lunchtime but that’s with people who go to lunch from work. Right now between Christmas and New Year’s a lot of people don’t work. The waiters there are super-nice, and we talked with many of them. And we had rather decent food, and then we got three complimentary ouzos and that basically made me unable to function for the rest of the day.

We went to the grocery store, all three of us which is something we never do and got some more food for New Year’s, and then we walked home, talking all the while. Then the afternoon slump hit me, and just two hours later I managed to record the podcast episode. Be forewarned, it is an extra chatty one.

After that I felt unable to write. I was tired, and tipsy, and without energy.

We skipped strength training again, I know, bad move, the boy and I watched two episodes of „How I Met Your Mother“, and I went to bed early. Slept like a log until 5.30. My sleep tracker tells me that I had more than four hours of deep sleep which would be a lot. I do feel pretty rested, so who knows.

Today there will be running, and writing, and reading, and I want to publish the podcast this afternoon. And the usual daily stuff. I don’t remember everything but I made a list last night so I’m good.

Dec 292017
 

The bad: skipped strength training, skipped recording the podcast, had too much to eat and went to bed too late.

The good: wrote 2,800 words, went running, had a fabulous lunch.

The best feeling yesterday was that I managed to write my first 1,000 words before breakfast. Of course I only did that because I woke up way too early but there was no helping that.

The morning went by with nothing much happening. We started cooking our whole chicken right after breakfast, and I went running somewhat too late. Since we had that huge chicken my husband had asked his mother to join us for lunch, and this time she was actually not nervous, and eating and talking was rather nice.

After lunch I barely managed to do the dishes and then entered the slump. For more than two hours. I did manage to write 500 more words but then the boy wanted my help. He had a friend over for a sleepover, and needed money to go and buy frozen pizza and potato chips, and needed bedding for his friend. He also vacuumed his room, and cleaned his toilet without me saying anything.

His friend showed up at around six as planned, I made them the pizza and talked a little with them, and then we went our separate ways. They had been planning to do a „Dr. Who“-marathon in the boy’s room. Meanwhile I watched an episode of „Dollhouse“ while spinning.

And then I had more beer and more chocolate, and wrote a little more but not as much as I wanted because I was too tired.

I really need to change my ways, if I continue like this I will be fat again in a year or so. And that’s something I definitely don’t want.

So today I want to do all.the.things. Clean a little, write about 3,800 words, do strength training, go out for lunch with my husband and the boy for Greek food, make music, record the podcast, not eat too much, and go to bed on time. We’ll see how that goes.

This morning I woke up at four with a leg cramp. The good thing is that I managed to fall asleep again. At four in the morning it seemed very reasonable to make plans to spend all weekend sewing, by the way. Especially New Year’s Eve, I mean what do you do on a day like that? I was informed by the boy that I will need to stay up until after midnight, so maybe doing a lot od sewing is not the worst idea…

Dec 282017
 

Well, I just had too much planned for yesterday. That always leads to not getting anything done.

After my husband’s breakfast I took a hard look at what I wanted to do in the morning, and then decided to skip the run. Especially since the boy went to school for his science project and needed to eat lunch at 12.15. There was no way I could run errands, go grocery shopping, and run before then.

So I walked around to the post office, health food store, and grocery store, then had lunch, and then spun a little more while watching instructional videos.

Then I started waiting for the boy to come back, surfed the web, played a video game, and procrastinated about writing. Which was my main occupation througout the rest of the day. I did enter the books I read up until September into librarything but that was all.

Had cheese and chocolate for dinner, watched Star Trek and such, did the dishes, and wrote about 600 words. And went to bed too late.

Today I woke up at 5.30 which means I will be really overtired today yet again. That will be fun for sure.

My plans for today are to run, help making a whole chicken for lunch, record the podcast, do four pomodoros of writing, spin, make music, and go to bed on time.

The boy has a friend over tonight for a sleepover so I’ll watch something without him then. Maybe „Dollhouse“. I started re-watching it some time ago. Didn’t get far if I recall correctly.

All of this sounds rather boring, doesn’t it? Doesn’t feel boring, though. Well, apart from the procrastination. That is pretty unfun. Yet I keep doing it. As if writing were a horrible thing to be avoided.

Dec 272017
 

So I was really looking forward to getting things done yesterday morning, And I even started writing right away. Only 124 words but it was a good start.

Made breakfast, found that the banana was not looking good but edible, wrote my blog post, meditated, and was done with all of that at 8. Of course my husband did only get up after 8.30. And of course I didn’t start the fire for him regardless.

Worked on the crochet blanket, and found that I’m only eight rounds away from finishing. Also found that it takes me about four days to finish a round so that will take a while. And I’m down to doing weird color combinations because I’m running out of yarn. Should be enough to finish, not enough to make it pretty.

We were early enough with everything that I even did my singing warm-up before lunch. And then we made pork cutlets for lunch – a rare treat – with potatoes, peas and carrots.

And then my day went sideways. The boy wanted me to hold his hand while he ordered the parts for his new gaming computer. Which I did, of course, even though I hadn’t planned for it. That took about 1 1/2 hours. And afterwards we dressed in something different than sweat pants and fleece shirts and went upstairs to my mother-in-law’s to talk with my brother-in-law and his four kids.

And whoosh, there went the rest of the day.

I did finish plying the rest of the advent calendar yarn, and then I decided on what fiber to use for the hat I want to make for my husband, and I divided the fiber, and looked for all the bobbins I need. I had watched Sarah Anderson’s spinning video again, and had decided to make a cabled yarn for that hat. My husband is pretty hard on his wool things, maybe a cabled yarn will help to make the hat more durable, and warmer.

So there was no playing of the piano, no playing of the ukulele or guitar, only very few words written, and no sewing. I did find the pattern for the Dottie Angel Frock and read the first part of the instructions, though. And I spent quite a bit of time yesterday looking for my fineliners and drawing notebook – I haven’t found those, though.

Then the boy and I watched the Doctor Who Christmas special while eating potato chips and truffles. We were both a little meh about that one, unfortunately, even though it does have its moments, and then I sat down and wrote another 500 words. And went to bed a little late.

When looking at my bullet journal afterwards I realized that we had forgotten strength training. Completely forgotten about it.

And my teeth hurt again. The gingivitis has been getting better over the last week, but the antibacterial mouth wash I’m using makes me lose most of my sense of taste. The only thing I can taste is sweet. Everything my husband cooks tastes really, really bland, as if he weren’t putting any salt on it or spices. While everything is riddled with delicious herbs and spices and everything. When we had dal  the other day the only way I could tell that it was hot with chili was by the way my lips were tingling.

I had hoped that I could stop the mouth wash soon but now it seems as if the whole thing isn’t gone yet. Meh.

So. Today is another day, I’m having high hopes for. If I manage to write 3,000 words a day until the end of the year I can still finish this first draft in time. I will also be running today, doing errands and grocery shopping, practice all the instruments, and spin a bit. Bonus points for starting on the Dottie Angel Frock muslin.

I would complain about how free days always go sideways but that just feels ungrateful and sad.

Dec 262017
 

Yesterday was the day that my lack of sleep caught up with me.

I had a pretty slow morning again, and even though I really tried to get out the door for my run by 10.30 I only left an hour later.

Running was great, the sun was shining, I felt fast even but the time on my phone told me that I wasn’t faster than the time before.

I had lots of plans and things to do but did have a slight problem with impulse control… Let’s just say that there are not a lot of cookies left, and that I spent quite a bit of time on the internet…

When I came home from my run my husband was busy making lunch, and also a little upset because his mother had interrupted him. She had wanted to borrow some beer from us for today’s lunch but there hadn’t been enough left. My brother-in-law and his four grown-up children will be at her place for lunch today. Since we usually are well-stocked she thought she could just borrow a few bottles with no problem. And she could have but she was all flustered because there were only a few bottles left. My husband kept saying, „I don’t know what she wants from me! There’s nothing I can do anyway!”

Because shops are all closed here on the two days of Christmas. So she couldn’t just go out and get some more.

So of course I hitched the trailer to my bike, hopped on it and biked all the way through town to a gas station that also sells beverages. Came home with a case of beer. My mother-in-law was pretty surprised. „But where did you get that? But you shoudn’t have! It would have been enough already!“ Well, then she shouldn’t have made such a fuss. Especially not at the time of day when my husband is cooking right after running because his mood is pretty low at that point anyways.

It is pretty funny, he runs the exact same route four times a week, and he is pretty fit but every single time he tells me that he is completely spent and doesn’t have any energy left. Not even to cook. But he does have to cook anyway. I, on the other hand, don’t feel as depleted after running as he does. He basically feels that running takes energy from him for the rest of the day. Four times a week. I found that when I come home from running, even from something like a 10K-run which I’ve only done once so far, I have no problem at all going out and buying groceries afterwards. Or riding my bike for a few kilometers. I’m pretty slow when I do that but my energy feels as if I could go on some more. Weird.

With the whole beer-kerfuffle I actually walked around in my running clothes until right before dinnertime, by the way. After lunch my husband usually takes a nap, and two days ago when I showered in the afternoon I managed to do so right when he wanted to take a shower, and then he had to wait an hour or so until the water was hot again. I didn’t want to risk that, and of course, yesterday he took a two hour nap, and there would have been plenty of time for me to shower, and the water to get hot again until he woke up. But I couldn’t know.

I read, I plied some more yarn, I played the piano and sang, I decided to eat lots of Christmas cookies and some cake and skip dinner because of that. And all the while my to do-list was staring me in the face.

The boy decided that he didn’t want to watch something with me which suited me fine, and dinnertime came around and I still hadn’t written a single word. or sewn anything. I really want to finish the two sewing projects in progress so I can start something new.

In the end I mended two pairs of pajama bottoms by hand, and copied a few pages from the book about drawing, and changed into pajamas (after taking a shower) around seven, and then I started writing. After 800 words I did fall asleep while sitting upright in bed, something I don’t particularly like, then I brushed my teeth and went to bed early.

So at least I got enough sleep for once. I only woke up at six this morning even.

Today there will be writing (a lot I hope but then I always hope for that), sewing, music, sitting and talking with my brother-in-law and his family, strength training, and then we’ll see.

Dec 252017
 

Yesterday might have the least stressful Christmas in many years. Which doesn’t meant that it wasn’t stressfull at all, there was a point when cooking dinner and getting ready where my husband and I both snapped at each other. We immediately realized what was going on and stopped, so that was okay.

I spent a rather lazy morning crocheting, talking to my husband and reading about writing. We had leftovers for lunch, and then I sat down to spin the last advent calendar fiber.

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Leftover pasta with leftover sauce with leftover champagne

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All the advent calendar fiber spun up.

Afterwards I started plying it right away which was a bit of a mistake. I don’t really believe in letting spun singles rest for ages before plying but trying to chain-ply very fine high-twist singles that have barely been spun might lead to a tangle or too. Also I found that I still need a lot of practice with the chain-ply, and I had the singles break a lot. This will not be the orettiest yarn. I do love th colors, though, and am hoping that the plying will go smoother today. So far I’ve plied about half of the first bobbin.

While spinning I watched videos, I finished the one about carving out time for writing, and watched other how tos including a spinning video by Sarah Anderson. Since I’m not used to this kind of plying I didn’t look up to actually watch the video at all. I might have to watch it again when I’m doing something that needs less focus.

I was highly motivated to write yesterday but in the end I didn’t which means I’m falling short on my 5,000 word-goal by 1,500 words. Unless I’ll write them this morning. Which would be a good thing anyway, challenge or not. (I said I would write 5,000 words last week but I didn’t.)

I’m not quite sure why I am not writing, I am motivated like crazy, I have enough time, I love the story I’m writing, no idea what I’m afriad of. Maybe of finishing and having to show this to someone. It’s a bit absurd, itsn’t it? But I haven’t shown any of my fiction to anyone ever since the demise of my writing group in 2011 or so. I really should change that.

Christmas dinner with my mother-in-law was both nice and somewhat tense. It is astounding how nervous she is, even when with family. And the boy was really excited. Of course. And my husband just wanted the day to be like any other regular day.

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Christmas dinner

The food was really good, and we all had Christmas cookies afterwards, and chocolate, and then I wanted to watch something on DVD but in the end I just read in my new book about drawing (Amazon Affiliate-Link). My sister gave it to me for Christmas, and I’m loving it. She wrote a note saying, „A method like this has really helped me but I’m not sure if you’ll actually use the book.“ Which is just fair, I have a huge pile of books about drawing and I have vowed to learn how to do it many times but so far I haven’t.

Of course now I’m all „Challenge accepted!”

My next thought was something along the lines of, „I should do a drawing a day and post it on the blog.“ I don’t think I will do that, though. But I’ll try to find a time of day where I can put some doodling in at least. Five minutes a day or so. I’ll pile it on all the things I’m doing daily anyway. Plus I will start writing for at least an hour a day. That will be fun!

I might have to reduce my internet time somewhat, though…