I have something to confess. Maybe you remember my series of posts on non-dieting, and how I’m only trying to eat like a healthy and sane human being? Do you?
(It’s okay, just go and read it. And it’s okay, if you don’t read all the posts. You don’t have to.)
So, there I was, proud of myself, lost about 20 pounds, eating better; once again I thought I had made it. Only I hadn’t. Slowly my old habits started creeping back in. Only today, I thought as I followed chocolate with beer. Only this once I thought, as I ate without stopping from lunch to bedtime. I was fortunate this time, because I noticed it early. And I tried desperately to go back on track.
Then I read Moxie’ s training’ s blog, where she told about T-Tapp. Curious I clicked on the link: “Lose 2 sizes in 4 weeks.” You need only 15 minutes of exercise a day. And all the success stories. Have you read the testimonials?
Suddenly I found myself like “Losing and looking fabulous? Count me in. Where do I have to sign?” Duh. Mrs. “I’d never diet” and “This is only to overcome unhealthy eating patterns.” was all excited because she wanted to look “Fit and fabulous in 15 minutes”.
Of course I was skeptical. But on the other hand my new workout routine of walking and a little leisurely yoga did not quite help me to build more strength. So I bought the book.
In the course of the first two weeks doing T-Tapp Basic Plus (15 minutes) out of a book (!) I – gained two pounds. BUT: I lost between one and two inches everywhere from my bust to my knees. And I looked more defined, and my posture (not that I had cared about it before) looked way better. I was hooked and ordered the DVD (expensive with a big shipping fee to Europe). Having the DVD helped a lot, but things didn’t proceed quite as spectacular as they begun. Well, that was only to be expected. Recently I even upgraded to the “Total Workout” (50 minutes).
I love this workout. It’s flexible, I can do 15 to 45 minutes depending on my schedule, I’m doing it every other day. I feel good, I look better, and I’m still getting sore muscles doing it, even ‘though I started in the middle of May. It feels as if you’re building the muscles from the inside out. And I like doing the same exercises over and over again, and I have no problems that there is no music or anything. Just a middle aged woman (very lean middle aged woman, but there are other people on the DVD too) working out and talking all the while, “Tuck butt! KLT.”
No the problem I’m having with myself (Are there any others? Thank God these are the only ones right now.) I thought I was mature enough to feel good with myself regardless of my weight, but I’m not. And I’m watching myself getting back into diet mentality. Now, while I’m looking quite good and weigh 20 pounds less than 18 months ago, I felt fat again. ‘Though I’m not. (Last week, looking at a recent picture of me I thought, “But I’m not that thin!”) And I’m putting my life on hold again, until I’ll have reached a certain number on my scale. This is crazy. I so thought I was over this. Blah.
It was only after the new successful workout that my eating started going back to what had been “normal” for me for the past 25 years. It didn’t matter, right? I had the wonder workout. Who cared what I ate?
Well, my body did, obviously. That’s why I never lost weight on exercise. It’s really easy to refill on more calories than I’ve burned.
So there I was. Diet mentality again. Judging myself according to a number on the scale or on a tape measure. (You know how accurate a tape measure is? On the same day I measured myself twice and I could make the results differ by four inches.) But I won’t give in. I’m back on my eating guidelines. I’m back to giving myself stickers for going to bed on time. (Yeah, pathetic, I know.) And I’ll keep on doing it as long as it’s necessary.