Well, not exactly a headache but I really don’t know what to call these. Overwhelm? Headache? Migraine? I should probably talk to my doctor about it but again, how do I explain?
„You see, it feels as if I have a headache but without pain. And also like my field of vision shrinks. And everything is too much, especially people. And everything is too bright and too loud and too much but screens don’t bother me at all. Oh, and I get nauseous but then I always am. And pain meds don’t work. Most of the time but sometimes they do. And I’m pretty sure it gets worse with stress.”
I bet the doctor will love this. And I might get another MRI that shows nothing. If I’m lucky.
Anyway, I did get almost eight hours of sleep again. That would be great if I didn’t suspect I need more than that.
Because I was feeling so off I promptly skipped manuscript time but I did the rest of my morning routine. The SAD light felt way too bright so I turned that off again. Yea was interesting because I was also feeling pretty dizzy. Balancing on one leg while feeling like the ground is shaking is always a fun experience.
Also because I felt off and, like, half my brain was offline again (oops, another symptom, I should make a list) my husband and I started fighting before breakfast. Figures.
We managed to make up pretty fast but for a while I was sitting at the breakfast table all alone. On the upside I could continue reading „Beast Business“. I really like it.
We talked, I crocheted briefly and then decided that I needed some video game time which was fun. And then I went out for my walk/run too late but, hey, the paths were clear enough that I could actually go and see trees, hurray!
This was one of the trickier parts, long stretches of path were completely clear, only mud, no ice at all.
I came back home to lunch:
There was some chocolate, some reading and more video game.
Then I took a shower and found the warm water really made me feel a little better as did the walking and the fresh air.
Teaching went better than I thought it would and then I had almost an hour for dinner. I sat, ate and read and then it was time for course Zoom. Which ended early so I just stayed at the computer a little longer and started writing this post.
Then I spent some more time on my own, did the usual evening things and went to bed. Today might involve a short train ride and some errands and more free time in the evening. Which I’m really looking forward to.
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