Let’s see. The day started with me heroically doing my complete morning routine for once. Yeah! There was breakfast and not much sitting around and dishes. Oh, and did I tell you guys that my feet hurt again? Pro tip: if you find exercises that help you with your pain don’t skip them for a whole week the second the pain is gone.
The cheap glasses that I had ordered from Zenni arrived and they are actually working! I might try to adjust the fit a little but other than that I can see things in the distance again and reading is okay-ish. They are not as comfy or well-made as the ones I usually buy but then the price was only about a quarter of the other ones.
Those glasses also make it totally clear that even with the right prescription lenses I still can’t really read road signs and such, there is a space in the middle of my focus that is just blurry.
The plan was to walk to the Asian grocery store with the boy, get back home and bike to the supermarket. What actually happened was that we left the house an hour later than planned, walked to the Asian store, found it closed because they are on vacation (it is the middle of August after all), I rememberer there is another Asian grocery store in town, we walked there and got almost everything we needed. Cute little store, very nice salesperson.
We walked home by way of the health food store for tofu, frozen veggies and – chocolate.
By then it was too late to get to the supermarket and back before lunch, I’ll do that today.
While my husband was busy cooking I hung up a load of laundry and started the next one. And found that the washing machine doesn’t smell all that fresh, I’ll buy washing machine cleaner today as well.
The reason for lunch were lots and lots of ripe cucumbers. I do like them cooked but they’re much better fresh, I have to say:
After lunch I did the dishes right away, we were a little late already and the boy’s friend was supposed to come over at three. And then I took myself over to my studio. Where I sat and waited, basically until the friend left around midnight.
And that’s where my usual „sit and wait“-mode kicked in, I scrolled through social media, played silly games, knitted a bit, read a bit and watched three episodes of „Miss Night and Day“. I also opened the manuscript of book 2 of the romance series. In my mind I had written thousands of words already but it turned out to be – 490. And after reading those I didn’t want to continue.
That’s something that happens often to me. You know how they tell you when you’re writing a novel to stop writing at the end of the day with the first sentence of a new scene? So that it’s easier to start the next day because you want closure? Well, closure my ass, every single time I try that I open the manuscript the next day, look at that sentence dangling there, think „You’re dead to me,“ close the manuscript and walk away.
So I should probably start that book over. At the same time I have the feeling I should re-read book 1 to get a back into the world and the characters and that feels like so much work…
There is a lot to be said for not letting creative projects sit for too long. Especially when you’re someone like me who loves starting things but has a hard time finishing.
The boys took much longer to finish their day of putting together and painting Warhammer and Gundam figurines, cooking miso soup and onigiri and eating it while watching a movie than planned so I sat in my studio, slightly bored and too hot until midnight.
I did leave the house briefly around 7 to walk to the nearby supermarket for beer, potato chips and gummy bears. As one does. The second beer of the day I fetched myself five hours later from my husband’s stash in the basement, slightly warm and not my favorite brand.
The boy’s friend left around midnight, then I remembered the second load of laundry and started hanging that up, and then the boy asked me to help him with the dishes.
Which is why I turned the lights out at 1.15.
I had the illusion of being able to get out of bed and function at my normal time of 7 but right now it looks like I’m doing the same thing as every time I go to bed too late, 1. I go to bed too late but set the usual alarm, 2. I wake up from the alarm and then lounge in bed for an hour not sleeping but also not doing anything, 3. I go through the day like a zombie with half a brain and get into arguments with my husband, 4. I do it all again the next day.
Always fun to see one’s behavior pattern, especially when it seems I can’t actually change and of them.
Anyways, I’m very low on energy and had two beers last night, so I’m guessing my outlook and energy will look much better tomorrow. If I go to bed on time. What suspense!
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