Another almost useless day spent in anticipatory dread

Which means not only do I feel meh right now, the exhaustion from things that haven’t happened yet also sapped my energy needlessly and that is making me mad.

So yesterday I spent quite a bit of energy and time waffling about going to the supermarket or not, when and how, because of the storm. I ended up doing something I’ve never done before in my life, I took the bus to the bug supermarket. I also went to the pharmacy and to a clothing store to return the boy’s too small pajamas and buy a new round of socks.

I got off the bus at the wrong stop but that wasn’t a problem because I only had to walk for two minutes or so. If I catch a bus right away it takes less time than walking but a little more than taking the bike. The busses were on time and pretty empty that time of the day. I did get a little carsick on the way back, I really should stick to the front of the bus, especially when hungry.

My husband made pancakes with spinach for lunch:

Then I decided not to do the dishes because the boy hadn’t eaten yet and I could only do about half anyway. That turned out to be a mistake.

I had big plans for the rest of the day. What I did instead was: sit around, scroll and play silly games and every time I felt that impulse to start doing something my husband showed up and wanted to talk. I finally took that extremely overdue shower after dinner. Then the boy showed up and we talked, then my husband, then I moved to the living room for watching TV, then my husband wanted to talk about friendship and feelings and such, I finally got to watch my C-drama, did a spot of Duolingo and while I was about to get ready for bed after deciding not to do the dishes or anything the boy showed up yet again and told me all about ‚Metal Gear Solid 2‘.

I turned the lights out at 11.30, about half an hour later than I wanted.

I did sleep reasonably well and at 6 I woke up again. Heard the boy coming downstairs, walking into the kitchen, banging the door when going back upstairs and then I was wide awake.

Decided to look at social media first thing in the morning, always a very solid decision. No morning routine, funny enough.

Today will be extremely super busy and people-y. I’m not the only one dreading it, the rest of the family is in a bad mood as well. No idea if I will find the time to blog tomorrow morning because there will be overnight guests and my mother-in-law’s birthday dinner tonight.