Archives for March 2018

It felt as if I hadn’t slept enough yesterday but I can’t really do anything if my body wakes me up an hour before the alarm.

The early start meant that there was time to go to the grocery store in the morning in addition to the run which was good. I bought red lentils that we ate right away.

It was supposed to be raining but I got everywhere I wanted staying totally dry.

Lots of teaching in the afternoon, and not quite enough practice. I’m falling back into loads of bad habits at the moment. It feels like I can’t do the good ones because I don’t have the energy but I’m suspecting that I had more energy if I were using my better habits. This is always rather disheartening because I work so hard to live a certain way, and just when I think I’m almost there it’s all crumbling apart again.

Well, nothing to do but to start again.

I had really wanted to write some more in the evening but we were rather late with dinner, and then I had to wait for my husband, and the boy was taking a shower, and then I was watching a webinar about how to get reviews for your books (I might be better off actually finishing a book first.) and so the kitchen is now looking catastrophically untidy with piles of dirty dishes, and I went to bed too late.

When waiting for my webinar I started watching „Gracie and Frankie“ and it is really good and a lot of fun. I will certainly watch more of this.

Today. There will be grocery shopping by bike while it’s really windy which will take all morning, and then there will be research for how to record video properly, and then there will be teaching, and then I will probably just flop facedown into bed.

I was feeling bad this morning for not spending enough time on writing because if you look at my daily life my top priority seems to be ravelry and blogs but then I realized that the webinar counts too, and I felt a little better.

I still only wrote 500 words which doesn’t feel enough.

Today is a new day where I will certainly transform into a much better me who spends every free minutes adding to her novel with a smile on her face.

Yeah. That’s exactly what will happen. And she won’t eat any chocolate at all, and do strength training with vigor, and not drink any beer, and go to bed at nine with her face scrubbed and her teeth flossed. After having done all the dishes.

Totally.

I knew beforehand that I wouldn’t actually get much done yesterday and I was okay with that.

I didn’t think I would spend all afternoon procrastinating about writing, though. I got 500 words from sitting around for three hours while feeling bad. Whatever it takes.

Yesterday was also the day I caved and subscribed to Netflix. I don’t like subscriptions because you keep paying all the time, and I don’t watch that much TV but after trying to clean a faulty DVD for the third time in a row something in me snapped.

So we watched „Star Trek: The Next Generation“ in HD. Which is rather nice.

For now I’m still in the free trial month, of course, and we’ll see how long we’ll do this.

I did manage to go to bed almost on time, so I’m counting that as a win.

Today there will be running (in the rain), and quite a bit of teaching, and hopefully more writing, and music. Not much else, I guess.

I’m still shying away from listing all my „open loops“. I might press the fabric I want to make a dress out of. Yesterday I put the pattern pieces on the fabric and I think I have enough which would be great because it’s less than the pattern calls for.

I’m going for small wins here.

I got up pretty late. I did wake up early but then thought about my life and my creative work and read half of Jessica Abel’s blog. I went running but didn’t take a picture and was a little faster than I have been lately. I took a little money with me and bought cookies at the store on my way home. I didn’t want to stress myself with the baking.

Slippers were finished:

Then I took a shower, ate something, and procrastinated about leaving for the spinning meeting for half an hour. Hopping on my bike when I have just returned from running is often somewhat hard. I should see this as triathlon training, maybe, with a shower break between.

The spinning meeting was great, there was fiber to buy that was really beautiful but I didn’t buy any, and I managed to finish spinning the singles for my current wheel project and start plying. Here are some pictures of empty spinning wheels because everybody was admiring the handdyed fiber:

I rode my bike home through the rain, had dinner, and watched an episode of „Dollhouse“.

Today I am hoping to finally get back to writing. Not much else, I guess. Maybe watch some of the book cover design course.

Just a lazy Sunday before the mad dash of next week begins.

Wow, that was a fully packed day.

I started listening to the podcast and writing show notes right after breakfast. Then I uploaded the video to youtube and cleaned the house. Well, mostly.

People seem to like the video which makes me happy.

I helped to make pizza, and taught all.the.students, and failed to bake muffins because by then I really needed a break.

The boy and I watched some Star Trek, and the DVD failed near the end so we couldn’t watch it. Then I puttered around until it was time for a webinar about „How to carve out space to achieve your big, deadline-free creative goals“ which was really good but after 90 minutes I quite because I wanted to get some sleep.

The theme of busyness will carry through to today, there will be running, and finishing slippers, and maybe baking, and writing, and the spinning meeting.

I’m hoping that the weather is nice enough to ride my bike there. Biking and taking the bus takes about the same amount of time but my bike can leave anytime whereas the bus only goes every thirty minutes.

I’m not quite sure how to shoehorn everything in today, we’ll see.

Despite waking up early yesterday I couldn’t bring myself to write right away. Which meant that it didn’t happen at all.

I went running pretty early:

And then I did my singing warmup before lunch, even, and then started recording the podcast. I tried something new which meant I basically recorded the whole thing twice. For example, I was halfway through when I realized that I hadn’t turned the actual recording on again. So I recorded the whole thing again from the top.

Then I taught my students.

In between, the boy wanted my help with calling firms because of his internship. I was a bad mother and told him to ask his grandmother because I was busy with the podcast. If I had helped him then there wouldn’t have been a podcast this week.

After teaching he asked me for help with writing emails for his internship and I helped him. I would rather have eaten dinner but, well, he is my son after all. Seems that maybe not all is lost, He was told to send his application at two firms. One said that they might take him if he did two weeks of internship instead of one. The internship takes place in the week before Easter break specifically so that students can do a second week during Easter break. I have to say I wouldn’t be sad to see him doing two weeks instead of one. Him doing all of this that late should have some uncomfortable consequences.

Besides him being scared, paralyzed, and in panic for weeks, I mean. My husband thinks that the boy just pushes everything uncomfortable away and then isn’t bothered by it at all but I think that stuff hangs over his head all the time, and he doesn’t really manage to forget about it. I’d like him to learn that dealing with uncomfortable stuff feels way better than trying to let it just sit there. Unfortunately these things never just dissipate.

Then it was pretty late. I did the dinner dishes (this time I told the boy to wait with his shower until I was done, and then the whole family helped me), and then I found myself too tired to write.

I just wanted to write that I’m having high hopes for today but then I remembered that I’m having a webinar tonight about „How to carve out space in your life to achieve your big, deadline-free creative goals“ by Jessica Abel, and I’d like to watch something with the boy, and I need to get the podcast ready for publication today despite having all students all afternoon.

And, of course, I’m hoping to clean the house today as well.

Maybe I’ll deal with the podcast and the writing in the morning, and clean the house after teaching? I’ll be done with that at 5.15. Might be doable to clean before dinner. That is how I used to do it when I started cleaning on Fridays. The minute that last student left I would get up and clean. And when my husband would be done with teaching everything would be done, and we could go into the weekend with everything in order.

I think there won’t be any baked goods for the spinning meeting tomorrow. I would have to choose between running and baking tomorrow morning, and running is just more important. Unless I could manage to make a quick batch of muffins first thing in the morning.

Hm. We’ll see.