After going to bed at 10.30 the day before and being very proud of it I woke up at 2.30 in the night, used the bathroom and that – was it. I lounged in bed trying to think soothing, sleepy thoughts until 4 am, then gave up on sleep and finished reading „Lucky Bounce“ by Cait Nary. Highly recommend, it is fun and fluffy and cute and funny.
I might have fallen back asleep around 7.15 but that’s time to start the day so I wrote my morning pages and then my determination started waning and I skipped yoga and meditation. I was really tired but not as tired as I would be in the late afternoon.
It was rather interesting, by the way, I didn’t have any racing thoughts or worries keeping me up or anything, I was just not sleepy. In the middle of the night. I don’t usually have trouble falling asleep or falling back asleep, no idea what that was about. My throat and stomach weren’t feeling well, maybe that was it.
So I looked at my list for the day and crossed a couple things off. I did do the usual housework stuff and then took the bike to the supermarket because for once the streets were clear. Came back home, threw part of the groceries in the freezer and fridge, helped to make salad and sat down to eat pasta:
It was very good though I would have preferred not to have lemon zest in my tomato sauce but that’s what you get when my husband wants to cook properly. He thinks it tastes much better that way. I still had a bit of time before teaching and for once I used that time to both take a break and a shower. It made me realize that the struggle with taking showers at the moment is partly due to the fact that I want to be considerate. My husband goes running four times a week and needs to take a shower on those days before teaching but after cooking. Since I never quite know when he does so I just sit in the kitchen waiting until it’s too late. Something I do a lot and it drives me crazy.
Yesterday I was so out of it from the lack of sleep that I didn’t even think about him at that point. Because the shower I use has priority for hot water over the one he uses. My husband also was very annoyed all day about my fuzziness and it made me realize once again how much energy I use every day just tamping down my inner muddleheadedness and on communicating clearly. Even with my own husband.
I was rather relieved when two of my students canceled, did not use my break in the afternoon to call potential new students on the phone (see communication problems above), ate dinner, had a nice conversation with my husband, did a minimum of Duolingo, the dishes and watched an episode of „Old-fashioned cupcake“ at the kitchen table before going to bed.
Oh, and I looked at the documents for my scintigram next week, and found that I should have stopped taking my thyroid meds 2 1/2 weeks ago. I am seeing a phone call in my future to determine whether that means I need to move the appointment or if it’s not that big a deal. Ugh.
This morning I’m feeling much better after a good night’s sleep and am hoping for a more energetic day today.