Yes, I know that doesn’t really make sense. Though I have to say that sometimes people with depression get told to not sleep to elevate their mood.
But I think the main reason was that I could talk with people who understand the slightly weird struggles I’m having, the fundamental „Why can’t I make myself do the things I want to do and that I know make me feel good in the long run?“ So while Monday’s coach declared me unfixable we laughed and commiserated and that helped.
Yesterday had a bit of a rocky start because I had gone to bed at 1.30 after two beers. I did get up at 7, did my complete morning routine, had breakfast with my husband, wove some ends in on the crochet blanket and proceeded to do all the things.
Woke the boy, opened the manuscript for revision, did the dishes, addressed and mailed two letters, went to the health food store, put everything away, called the IRS and finally reached an actual person. Who told me to throw the letter they sent me away because everything was in order.
I put the groceries away, had an early lunch with my husband where we continued talking about his struggles learning Italian. We had potatoes, spinach and fried eggs:
This for me is comfort food that reminds me of my childhood. We had spinach – the frozen one with cream sauce – every week because spinach is so healthy and I had an iron deficiency. Of course now we know that spinach doesn’t really contain that much iron but well.
Since we were so early I decided to do some more revision after lunch, wrote two emails and took a break before teaching that was too long to deal with all the laundry and take a shower but at least I hung the first load of the day and folded the one that had still occupied the drying rack. I had a student cancel which meant I had a one-hour break in between students. I went on to hang up the second load of laundry but found that my husband did it.
I refilled my fountain pen, remembered that I needed to print out new grocery list forms, managed to squeeze that in before my last two students of the day, then took a shower, did the dishes, watched some TV, did the usual Chinese lessons and turned the lights out a little earlier for once.
Today there will be more things to get done, teaching, and some exercise. Or maybe I will go grocery shopping today because I’m having a dentist appointment tomorrow morning, we’ll see.