Only managed to get almost enough sleep. I did make breakfast early. Then all the usual morning things including talking with my husband and then the bakery for bread, the post office and the health food store.
Tried writing afterwards but couldn’t remember what I had wanted to write next.
There was lunch:
Zucchini blossoms again.
And some really German food, kohlrabi from the yard again. Also I will need to buy potatoes later today.
Then I did the dishes with the boy’s help, folded some laundry, hung up a new load, spun a bit while watching the Tour and taught all the students while melting in my studio.
Finally found a way to send emails from the teaching website address. I had tried numerous times over years and never got it to work.
Ate dinner with my husband. Skipped the knee exercises because it was too late already, went to bed. Started a new book, „Brittle Midnight“ by Helen Harper. I did like the first in the series but am not sure if I really want to read this one or not. It starts with a prologue, maybe that’s the problem. Maybe I should finish reading „Fractured Stars“ by Lindsay Buroker first. I’m about halfway through, really liked it until about a chapter ago but am stalling.
And I keep thinking that I should finally read „Map of Shadows“ by J. F. Penn before the next novel in that series comes out in August. Maybe it’s just too much choice.
Also I’m thinking about a way to make me obsessed with the things I want to do. Over the past decades I have cultivated a ‚slow and steady‘-approach to everything because ultimately it gets more done and is healthier. But it really is not the way I’m wired. So I forbid myself to get really obsessed with things. Because I know that obsession will make me crash and burn. On the other hand feeling meh about almost everything is not the right way either.
I guess I’ll experiment some and report back.
Today there will be walking/running and some teaching. My husband made noises about going swimming in a lake but I didn’t want to. So I might have some time to myself this morning. Exciting!
What to read next is always a thing I love to struggle over 😉 I just browse through my Kindle and think, oh what do I feel like to read next!? Then I just start a book. But if there’s the next installment in a series I adore, then I have to read it asap and others have to wait.
I also tend to drop my interest in knitting for a period of time and just binge read. And then it’s again knitting like crazy instead of reading. I don’t have much time for myself and as soon as it’s there I take a deep breath and go for what makes me happy in that moment. Even if it’s sleeping. It might be a waste of time where I could do all kinds of things, but if the focus is always on other people, I want to be egoistic in those sparse moments I truly have to myself. So I don’t think it’s about obsession about one thing or limiting oneself to something. You should just go for the stuff you really want to do in that moment. It’s for yourself, not anybody else.
Well, for me doing nothing but sitting with knitting and a book (I usually do both at the same time so I don’t have to choose) can be a sign of feeling depressed. It is always the easiest thing to fall into but not necessarily what makes me feel best.
I have loads of time to myself and spend about two hours a day reading on average.
Oooh look at that: half a novel ?
And thanx for the book titles. They’re on my wishlist now